What? Another blog?

Everyone who knows me knows I love to talk. Well, that's not strictly true - often I will be the quietest of the bunch and be all contemplative instead of talkative. But everyone who knows me knows I love it when I have something I want to talk about.

I guess the times I have something I want to talk about and the times I actually have something to talk about don't always marry up though. In fact I think often when I don't love to talk is perhaps when I might have the most to say.

Here I think you will find a mix of both. Sometimes there will be things I love to talk about and perhaps I'd say them even if no one was listening. But sometimes I hope you will also find some things I perhaps wouldn't want to jabber on about - things for which I might hope no one was listening. I guess I want to start making less distinction between what I talk about and what I keep to myself and just talk. In any case it means more talk, and that means another blog.

The Durban Adventure started for me a habit of blogging (one that I must resume, to be sure) that I want to continue in a way that's not tied to my time in Durban (as, alas, it is finished). I have another blog - http://onebehindsecond.blogspot.com - where I want to practice my 'role' as a teacher of the Bible and just develop ideas and thoughts about God, the Bible, the world, etc. But this one is more personal, more from the heart. Instead about being about something it is about someone, namely me. While it will be a journal of day to day things and what's happening as I go off to Belfast soon and wherever life takes me (for those who just want to stay in touch with what's happening in my life), it will also be perhaps my side of a conversation, with whoever wants to listen, about me. Who I am, who I am becoming, what all these new experiences are teaching me and forming in me, and ultimately what God is doing in me - all this will be here too. And that is important to know, because this can't just be about me. Oh no! 'Me' is changing. 'Me' is in a state of flux. 'Me' is a work in progress - a wonderful work of God on a much less than wonderful person. That's why I mention being 'Full Of Earth'. I'm on the road to recovery. Much like an addict who sits in the ruins of their broken life, so sin addiction (by me, against me, and around me) has left me dead at the kerb. But Jesus Christ has died to give me life to the full (Jn 10:10), a life that I must press on to make my own (Php 3:12), a life worthy of a son of God (Eph 4:1). What I shall be is not here yet, but I will be like Him, and by the same grace that started this all off I am becoming what God intended, purifying myself just as He is pure (1 Jn 3:2f).

They say the first step in recovery is admitting you have a problem. Half the time I might not actually really believe it. The other half the time though something great might just happen. Watch this space!